My Current Readings #6

Now i've read further and I'm finding myself questioning a few things. In this section of the reading, i have found that Bella has other things coming into her life, I'm just not quite sure whether she is excited about it or not. From the previous book, a family friend of hers, Jacob is coming back into the picture. From the beginning he always had a thing for Bella, it was just never mutual. Things seem as though they are rekindling between the two nowadays. Bella and Jacob are much more apparent in each other's lives and they seem as though they are enjoying it. Jacob hasn't told her much yet, he doesn't want to come off to strong, and he's younger then her. Although, Bella does know much more than she did previously. She has now guessed and found out that Jacob was a part of the werewolves. The pack that was against the vampires, no wonder Jacob never liked Edward. Bella figures this out and starts hammering herself with questions. When she boiled down to it she had come to the agreement with herself that there was simply something wrong with her. She wondered why so many mythical creatures would be so often present in her life, there had to be a problem within herself. Bella does not stop this world wind train of thought, she gets too caught up in it and forgets she is even with Jacob. She is at a very vulnerable state right now, the realization of the two people she actually connects with are not human throws her for a loop. I think that Bella needs to stop getting so utterly caught up in her own mind and thoughts. Maybe if she were to try and relax and think it out at a less rapid pace and maybe talk through it with someone, like Jacob for example. I feel like if she is able to talk through her battles then they will not be so strong and aggressive. I can't wait to find out if she is going to throw away everything and move to where her mom lives, so she can get away from all of these creatures, or if she'll stay. 

My Current Readings #5

I think Bella is going crazy. She seems as though she has no reason what to do with herself and as though she has no reason to be happy. She needs to look to the other side of things- there will always, always be something positive, no matter what the situation. Bella significantly chooses to look furthest from that positivity in her life. Her dad Charlie, even begins to notice this constant negativity in his daughter. Charlie tells Bella to get out. Bella is mildly offended by this comment her father has left her to go to school thinking about. Turns out, that day at school Bella went out on a limb and asked a most personable "friend" of hers what her plans for the evening were. That night, Bella and her friend Jessica decide to grab some dinner and then see a zombie movie. Jess feels very strange about Bella randomly asking her to hang out, she has come off very unsociable to almost everybody in school, with the exception of Edward, who was gone now so it did not matter. Jess is very outgoing though so she accepted this reaching out from Bella and tried to have a fun night. The night was a little awkward but overall pretty successful. Bella had trouble sparking up a conversation with Jess but she managed. By the end of the night Jess and her mood actually took a sharp turn and she was very quiet and unsocial towards Bella. Bella tried to be nice but Jess wouldn't take it so Bella just left and went home. I think Bella needs to realize that her actions around people are not as normal as others may want them to be and by realizing it she will be able to admit to it to those she is hanging out with. I believe that this would really be beneficial for the mental state Bella is in, others would understand what she's going through and comfort her, i can't see whats bad about that. Bella, open up!

My Current Readings #4

A disaster has struck. Bella is heart broken. Edward is gone. Edward and Bella continued not to talk those days untill he came up to her car after school and actually said something, "can i come over sometime today?" he asks Bella, her response being "of course!" when Bella arrived at home, Edwards silver car was already in her driveway, where charlie parks his car. This was nothing but a bad sign, it meant Edward wasn't staying long. They both got out of their cars and Edward took her by the hand and said they were going on a walk. they got nearly a block down and Edward stopped so they could have their talk. Edward's face was emotionless, absolutely plain as it gets. He told Bella that they were leaving, and promised her that she would never see him again, he was done causing her troubles and pain. Bella had nothing to do but to beg, he left her with a kiss on the forehead, "bye Bella." Bella did not go home. She wondered into the woods, further and further. She was already numb from the Edward situation. She was in denial. Bella ended up falling, many times she remembered, and eventually fell hard and didn't get back up. She remained here for some time, hearing people calling her name. Finally somebody was at her side saying "Bella I found you!" The voice was not recognizable. He picked her up and carried her home. Turns out that Charlie had nearly half of the town out on the search for her. She slept, and was lifeless the times she was awake. This tells me how much Edward was to Bella. He really was her life, her soul, and her way of happiness. All of that, ten minutes, gone. Bella is not looking for anything that could possibly be positive out of this situation, her dad notices. I think Bella needs to realize that some things need to happen, even if you don't want them. She has many ways that she still needs to grow, and because of Edward being gone she can't throw away what she is now and could be in the future. 

My Current Readings #3

Recently, after the talk with Edward's dad, Carlisle and Edward driving her home, Edward has seemed to do a lot of thinking. The following morning he met her at school and waited for Bella in the parking lot, as he always did. He walked her to class and in between every class as well, like usual. The one thing that was different today, there was not one conversation that was held between Bella and Edward. They were together yet they did not speak a word to one another. This continued throughout the entire day and even after Bella got home. After school she went to work and she was stressing out about the Edward situation. She was worried something was terribly wrong and that he'd never snap out of it, but she calmed herself down and thought that after work maybe things will be blown over. Having some time apart could do some good. When she got home from work she was pleased to see Edward's silver car in front of her house and when she entered she walked into a house with two men sitting on the sofa in front of the television. This was not normal for Edward. Again, He barely spoke more than a few words to her this time. Bella foreshadows that he is overwhelmed with her always being hurt when he is around. She wonders to herself again and again, what is he going to do about it? She questions if things will end and if its her fault. Emotions are  being thrown around in the book right now, nobody seems to know the right thing to do or say, they can't really break up, can they?